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Thečhíȟila. Ich liebe Dich. I love you.
- Me: I won't get jealous
- Me: Who's this fucking whore
They were there for me when i needed to feel better.
It’s one of those things you grow up thinking you’d never do.
Until one day, You don’t think. You just want to fit in. You’re new found friends are so cool.
One turns into more.That turns into something different.
It changes you.
You’re no longer yourself.
You took random pills from a stranger.
You took things you weren’t even what you were told it was.
by the handful.
You get sick after time. You have no immune system anymore.
That should be enough but, here you are again.
You always hated parties and here you are, because it’s here.
You make bad decisions.
Years past and you don’t believe that its been two years.
You think you’re past it.
But guess what you’re old enough to buy your own drinks now.
You drink everyday. You drink on your lunch breaks. You go out with people with people you don’t like for company. You almost give yourself alcohol poisoning. You go out alone. Yo make bad decisions.You drink outside of your house in the dark. You drink yourself sick.
You get sick. Once again, Your immune system is fucked and your in pain and agony. You can barely breathe. The doctors give you something to help with the pain. You take them. Its your new best. You take them when your better. You mix them with alcohol. You make bad decisions. You get sick again. Don’t worry though the doctors will understand. they gave you something stronger, and you’ll just mix that with alcohol too. You don’t care. You don’t care about yourself. You don’t care about anyone.
You don’t care about anything, unless it benefits you and this time it does, Your friend sells you what you want and more. Something new and you like it. You mix that with alcohol too. You get aggressive when people try to tell you what your doing to yourself. You still don’t care.
I can’t say i blame you. Eventually, that runs out too and your back to drinking and your sick, craving. You tell your spouse at the time, that they need to clean their act up knowing you’re on their level. You take their pills and lie and say you’re throwing them away. You take them.
You’re going though the medicine cabinet,you see something unfamiliar in a familiar bottle. You take it and it turns out to be the strongest thing you’ve taken. You’re numb and you love it. Everyday is wonderful. even the day you get caught taking them. You just got scolded anyway.
You tried to trick the doctor but, they saw right through you and offered you something you can’t really abuse.But don’t worry because your dad has expired pills and he says you can have them. And you take them until their gone.
and things were going good.You were sober, You even got a new boyfriend. a boyfriend who actually supports you being good.
You get mad, you cant control your personal life, You don’t understand why things aren’t going your way
But, don’t worry because your mom just got a perception she’ll share with you. And just like that, the two of you devour it. she tries to monitor how many you take but, you just lie away.
You still harbor this resentment. You’re pissed. You don’t know what to do to matter. You want to mean something so much and yet you do everything you can think of and you still don’t mean what you want to.
You decided to have a drink. A single drink. You start to feel sick half way though. You don’t want to embarrass yourself so, you force yourself to finish it. You get sick. You throw up. You feel this immense pressure inside your head. Everything’s spinning and you’re burning up. You don’t know what to do. You get home and go to your mom. Trying to explain yourself and obviously slurring, All she has to say is “How much have you had to drink?”. You give up and try to sleep it off, You get sick again. Over and over. You cry. You don’t understand. You’ve drank way more than this before and never felt like this. Eventually, it passes and you swear that you’ll never drink again. You end up going out and having two drinks later on because you didn’t want to spend the night alone. You get sick. You throw up and pass out at home.
You haven’t touched anything since and you’re doing good.
More problems start to appear and you’ve been strong so far.
You’ve kept your secret a secret to an extent.
You’ve never been good at controlling your impulses over the years
Let’s see how this all goes.